25 February 2005
I seem to have lost my words this week.
I really don't have the words to express how violently, apoplectically angry this makes me.
I can't describe how exhausted and wretched I still feel because I haven't got rid of this lurgy yet.
I don't know how to explain the emotions that have been stirred up by the news that my aunt is in hospital, dying, from cancer that's spread through her entire body. Update: have just got word that she died at 8.45 this morning.
I didn't know what to say to my mum when she started crying during the phone call where she told me about my aunt.
I have reports to write for work. I know what I want to say, but somehow, when I try to write it down, the words desert me.
If you happen to spot my words, wandering aimlessly, like a bunch of feckless teenagers bunking off school to hang around the local shopping centre while drinking cheap cider, could you do the decent thing and give them in a kick in the arse and send them back to me?
Thanks.
I saw that. Words escaped me too. I tried to justify it in that they said they may loose other donors if they accept the money from JSTO.
But at the end of the day, it's simple wrong. People are idiots. It's not about religion, I know many people of all denominations who would agree that not accepting the money is wrong. It's about particular small minded people being arsehats.
*hugs*
Sorry to hear about your aunt.
"small minded people being arsehats" - yep, that just about sums it up for me too.
*more hugs*
The anger and sorrow in your words are almost palpable.
Life seems so unfair on occasions like these.
Try re-reading "Desiderata" to still the anger and balance the sorrow.
Regarding loss of concentration when writing work reports, I put on a classical type CD, tune out, and the words come back into focus as the mind calms to classical music. I enjoy modern chart stuff as well; it just that anything with a beat registers too actively on my subconcious when I am trying to write "official" type stuff that has to be logical and not emotional.
Hope this helps.
Keep writing. I love your words and photo's.
Luke
You can find a copy of "Desiderata" here:
I'm sorry to hear about your aunt - I sending you some good thoughts.
And, yes - bastard christian groups. Bunch of useless wankers.
I saw some bad words loitering outside the off-licence. They were very rude to me. Are they yours, by any chance?
As for this Christian Voice debacle, I'm outraged. But also quite impressed by how the Maggie's Centres folk have played Stephen 'dangerousandsmugselfrighteousbastard' Green to make the most of their difficult situation. As a result, they'll raise a lot more than the three grand they have 'lost' with all the publicicity this has generated. Well done them.
It is always the decision of a charity's trustees whether to accept any donation or not. The trustees have a legal obligation and moral duty to act in the best interests of the charity. And in this case, they were intimidated and threatened by both Christian Voice and another organisation called UK Life League. Maggie's Centres admit it was a tough decision, but the threatened potential disruption to their services was too much of a risk to take. The full statement from the Chief Exec is here:
And the rest of my comment, which has taken on a life of it's own, is loitering here:
[rant] http://www.chaotique.co.uk/christian-vice.html [/rant]
And for you Pix:
*even more hugs*
So very sorry for the loss of your Aunt.
I wish I had some words to make it all better, I'd give them all to you and you could spread them around.
Sorry to hear about your aunt, Pix.
If there is a God, I'd imagine he's got a nasty surprise waiting for Stephen Green and his small-minded friends right now.
*bear hug*
Hope everything gets a little better for you soon pix.
* big scottish man in a kilt hugs * (the best kind!)
Sorry to hear about your Aunt, and the phone call with your Mum, I've been there and it's horrible.
Ohh and apparently some of your words have made it over to my website - I presume they are yours anyway, as I NEVER mis-spell..
I'm sorry to hear that, Pix. It's bad news. Take care of yourself.
About your dear aunt: Please do not feel angry ! Be sad (this is normal and good!), but not angry, since anger harms you, first of all. You do not deserve or want to be more harmed, do you ?
Please consider that nobody ever dies from cancer, car accident, disease or anything else. We just all happen to have a final appointment with GOD. Whatever circumstances (long or short, predictable or not), that is the issue for all of us.
Concentrate on those who live, among which, yourself ! Do and speak good things to those who suffer even more than you (your mother for instance).
If you know GOD, speak to him, seek him and trust him.
If you do not know him yet, or if you have let him down earlier in your live, take the opportunity to try again (i don't mean trying religion, which is useless, but a personal relationship with GOD through his only begotten son, JESUS-CHRIST).
HE is allways ready to answer those who suffer and seek HIM sincerely.
Just try, be strong enough to try & trust. Don't worry, HE is a living GOD, and he will answer !
Sorry for my english (i am French) Sorry again !
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life" (John 3/16)
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